That moment when you get your friend in trouble…

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my real, fucked up, rollercoaster love story<3

so ive been on &off with this guy for almost 3 years, it started as the best relationship in the world. i was the naive freshmen &sophmore who say no one but him. 2 years into it things got really rocky , we started breaking up &getting back together. but we never gave up on each other, he was a grade older then me but i was his first girlfriend and everything. we didnt just go to the movies &hang out. it was like we were married. i cooked for him, we had sleep overs all the time. no one in the world knows me bettter then him, he’s the only one who can calm me down. the only one who can make me cry and make it better within seconds. im so comfortable with him in all levels, were like little kids together . we each others first loves. his senior &my junior year , we hit our bottom. we didnt talk or look at each other for months, it killed me. but i grew strong and learned from it. out of no where, we talked &we were instantly back on the roller coaster of love, but honestly i wouldnt want it to be with anyone else. we never went back out, we werent ready for that. we fought alot, but we loved even more. its just crazy, i cant explain it. but anyways once again we went our seperate ways beginning of my senior year, it was a bitter ending but i swore i was done. he didnt wish me happy birthday, or anything instead i would get random drunk calls from him (hes in college now) sometimes he would leave me fucked up voicemail, he was so mean. but i never called back or anything, i told myself i was better then that. one time he called & i answered he was drunk, but he wasnt mean he just wanted to talk. i told him that we had no friendship because all that stuff he said to me over voicemails how could we? so i hung up & told him to just leave me alone. once again it killed me, that was about 3 months ago. our families were really cool with each other because we were together for so long that they met &all that blah blah stuff. so for one of my school functions my dad used his dads grill, so his dad told me he was going to send him over to pick it up the next day i was so nervous, but excited. it was going to be the first time i would see him since he left for college in sac, he was down for break. so when he came to the door i opened &he asked me to help him load it in. it wasnt akward at all, even though i swore i wouldnt be friends with him i just couldnt be mad. we chatted for about an hour outside, we huggged and admitted how much we missed each other, he apoligized for everything he said but i told him still that it wasnt okay, he hurt me alot with his words. so after saying bye he kissed me on the fore head. once again the butterflies &smiles , he rushed them all to me. i havent been with anyone since him, i forgot what it felt like to be in someones arms, to be held, to be comforted. i missed it so much. so last night we were talking on fb &i invited him over, so i snuck him in &OMG, it was the best night ever, we laid all night listening to slow jams, talking &just cuddling. its just so crazy how much you can reallly love someone and no matter what happens. the moment you see each other all of it just comes back, we wont be getting  back together, its just unrealtistic , but i know our love is their. you can see it when we look at each other, and no matter what he will always be my first love &no one could touch my body , my heart, my feelings the way he did. &seeing him last night makes me the most tiredest, but happiest girl today at school. the craazy things you do for love